It's Monday and I have not went for a walk/jog since Thursday...Carol is on vacation and she is gonna kill me when she gets back! :) I wake up every morning with the bestest of intentions...I tell myself I am going to get up and get out the door, just like I do when Carol is with me.....but something...seems to always delay me!! Then, I eat....and well, we know I HAVE to wait at LEAST an hour before I run after I eat..because it could come up...remember? I have experienced it! So,...while I'm waiting for my food to digest, I check Face book...read emails..reply to emails...unload the dishwasher..then load it again..then I start to do laundry and I put a load in. I tell myself, NOW is a GREAT time to get my running shoes on and head out the door! Then, I make a "quick", super really QUICK phone call, and..check my voice mails, then I HAVE TO return those calls....and before I know it.. I now ONLY have 45 minutes before I gotta pick up Katie!! Well, I CAN'T go running now! I gotta GET ready to GET Katie. I tell myself that when I come home from getting Katie I can go for a run! PERFECT!! Then, Katie is wanting to PRACTICE her DRIVING, so.. she drives, and I sit on the edge of my seat.. PRAYING that she will LISTEN to my CALM INSTRUCTIONS that will ASSIST her in her driving skills. We now are BOTH in DESPERATE need of ice cream.....so we stop for ice cream. By the time we get home..I GOTTA start dinner, and Kuuipo needs to be fed...and the fish...they too need to be fed! So, we eat dinner, Kuuupo is fed, the fish are fed...but NOW..I'm FULL! WOW!! Where did the day go??!!!! I know....TOMORROW!!...I will run TOMORROW!!! I will wake up early......
Gotta Run!!
ps...I hope Carol isn't reading this...and if you are...."Carol, I LOVE YOU...you're pretty!"...
Saturday, March 27, 2010
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Bagels...
Fridays are my long run days.....Carol and I usually lengthen our runs to about 6 miles or a little longer, and she pushes me to run longer between spurts of walking. In short.....Fridays suck! We headed down to the beach and began our jog amidst tourists out for a stroll...kids playing in the sand, couples in lounge chairs...and, actual REAL runners. :) As I am huffing and puffing past all the scenery I start to feel the bagel I had for breakfast start to work its way up my stomach and kinda lodge itself in my chest. I tell Carol about this new development, and she yells back that I gotta keep running, "push yourself Kimmy, run thru the pain". I continue to press on as we are making the turn to head back to the beginning, knowing in my head we still have another 3 miles or so to cover. I drink water during the walking intervals and I am trying to push the water down hard to see if that will help the bagel work its way back down... We are now 2 miles from finishing and I tell Carol that the bagel is gonna come up. She leads me to a porta potty and asks if I want to go in and throw up. The thought alone makes me want to throw up! I kinda walk into some near by bushes and assume the position...yeah, I know...I was as disgusted as you are! Long story short...it worked itself out. :) As we go back down to the beach and after I rinse out my mouth, Carol says..."Ok, time to run, that was your break...let's go!" I want to strangle her, but my feet and legs follow her down the beach path and I am trying to get my breathing rhythm back. It takes me a few minutes but I finally am breathing in my usual pattern and we reach our starting point. We are rewarded with sunshine and a ride back home in my 10yr old convertible vw. Running passed the pain is a new experience for me. I feel like I can't take another step and that is when Carol says I must dig deeper and keep going, apparently that is the only way I will improve and cover more distance. I need to block out my own thoughts of giving up and MAKE my body keep going...
It is interesting how running seems to be similar to my journey in life at this time. I find myself "hitting a wall" on days where I am glued to a picture of Skip and I....going back in time to where we were and what we were doing at that moment...and all I want to do is jump into that picture and get lost in it and stay there.....and then I hear my Lord whispering in my ear, calling me back to my today, reassuring me that He is with me as I take another step forward... It is so tempting to ignore that still small voice and dig my heels in. He shows me that if I choose to be immovable, I will create a distance between Him and I...a distance that no matter how my heart hurts...I don't want. So, I look up and start to find my breathing rhythm once again....and simply move...forward. Thank you Lord for being so gentle, thank you for not letting me get lost.
Katie got her drivers permit last week..she was all smiles as she showed me her new picture ID...and yes, as we walked out to the car I wanted so badly to turn to Skip and say, "Dear, how did this happen?..Just yesterday she was playing tea party with her dolls and puppy, asking us to sit at the table so she could pour us a cup of tea." And as I was digesting this wonderful moment for Katie, I was yet again facing my reality without Skip.....I was experiencing that "bagel in my throat feeling" all over again...and I watched as my feet and legs moved me...walked me...FORWARD.
"We cannot kindle when we will The fire which in the heart resides, The spirit bloweth and is still, In mystery our soul abides; But tasks in hours of insight willed Can be through hours of gloom fulfilled." - Oswald Chambers, My Utmost for His Highest.
Gotta Run!
It is interesting how running seems to be similar to my journey in life at this time. I find myself "hitting a wall" on days where I am glued to a picture of Skip and I....going back in time to where we were and what we were doing at that moment...and all I want to do is jump into that picture and get lost in it and stay there.....and then I hear my Lord whispering in my ear, calling me back to my today, reassuring me that He is with me as I take another step forward... It is so tempting to ignore that still small voice and dig my heels in. He shows me that if I choose to be immovable, I will create a distance between Him and I...a distance that no matter how my heart hurts...I don't want. So, I look up and start to find my breathing rhythm once again....and simply move...forward. Thank you Lord for being so gentle, thank you for not letting me get lost.
Katie got her drivers permit last week..she was all smiles as she showed me her new picture ID...and yes, as we walked out to the car I wanted so badly to turn to Skip and say, "Dear, how did this happen?..Just yesterday she was playing tea party with her dolls and puppy, asking us to sit at the table so she could pour us a cup of tea." And as I was digesting this wonderful moment for Katie, I was yet again facing my reality without Skip.....I was experiencing that "bagel in my throat feeling" all over again...and I watched as my feet and legs moved me...walked me...FORWARD.
"We cannot kindle when we will The fire which in the heart resides, The spirit bloweth and is still, In mystery our soul abides; But tasks in hours of insight willed Can be through hours of gloom fulfilled." - Oswald Chambers, My Utmost for His Highest.
Gotta Run!
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Pressing on with His purpose.....
I have done something every day for the past 8 months and 16 days....When I wake and my eyes open, when I realize that I have been given another day...I close them again. I close them and speak to the Lord, these words.. "You have given me another day, please let it be lived for You..let me be about Your purpose, let me live it for you, and when You will...take me home".
I say this not to be morbid, not even to evoke sympathy...it is said with a heart that truly doesn't want to waste a moment, I truly desire to live out the purpose He has chosen for me. Running, training...I know may seem silly, but to me, it is clearly a part of my purpose for this season. Another purpose that has become clear that the Lord has revealed for me is sharing my heart with others..whether by blogging, writing, or speaking...it is a part of my purpose and I want to be about it in any way He leads. This wednesday I will be speaking to the college girls at the Bible College at Calvary Chapel Kihei. I pray His words will come out of me and what He has put on my heart to share with them will point them to Him. My love for the Lord and the life experiences He walks me thru will be what I share...I pray wednesday will glorify Him and touch young hearts.
This past saturday I walked/jogged a 5k with my daughter Katie and my cousin Cambria. The plan was to do a 10k....but as we pressed into the run it became obvious that Katie was getting winded and her endurance was not quite ready to do the 10k. I told her we would finish the 5k together and call it good. She said she felt bad for holding me back and wanted me to go on without her...with so much love in my heart for her attempt, that was not gonna happen! We finished together and it was a moment I will cherish. Katie said my improvement amazed her and she was very proud of me....what a gift! The sweetness of her words renewed my drive to press on and continue on living out His purpose. It's amazing how sincere praise, unexpected encouragement, words of love....spur us on!
This morning when I woke up and closed my eyes to say my morning prayer, asking the Lord to let me live His purpose, I thought of Katie and included...."Lord, let me shower Your love on those You have given me today, let my daughter see You in me...and when You will...take us home".
Gotta Run!
I say this not to be morbid, not even to evoke sympathy...it is said with a heart that truly doesn't want to waste a moment, I truly desire to live out the purpose He has chosen for me. Running, training...I know may seem silly, but to me, it is clearly a part of my purpose for this season. Another purpose that has become clear that the Lord has revealed for me is sharing my heart with others..whether by blogging, writing, or speaking...it is a part of my purpose and I want to be about it in any way He leads. This wednesday I will be speaking to the college girls at the Bible College at Calvary Chapel Kihei. I pray His words will come out of me and what He has put on my heart to share with them will point them to Him. My love for the Lord and the life experiences He walks me thru will be what I share...I pray wednesday will glorify Him and touch young hearts.
This past saturday I walked/jogged a 5k with my daughter Katie and my cousin Cambria. The plan was to do a 10k....but as we pressed into the run it became obvious that Katie was getting winded and her endurance was not quite ready to do the 10k. I told her we would finish the 5k together and call it good. She said she felt bad for holding me back and wanted me to go on without her...with so much love in my heart for her attempt, that was not gonna happen! We finished together and it was a moment I will cherish. Katie said my improvement amazed her and she was very proud of me....what a gift! The sweetness of her words renewed my drive to press on and continue on living out His purpose. It's amazing how sincere praise, unexpected encouragement, words of love....spur us on!
This morning when I woke up and closed my eyes to say my morning prayer, asking the Lord to let me live His purpose, I thought of Katie and included...."Lord, let me shower Your love on those You have given me today, let my daughter see You in me...and when You will...take us home".
Gotta Run!
Monday, March 8, 2010
Singing in the rain......NOT!!!
Katie and I are settling into our home, taking things slowly and enjoying our view. We are so grateful for our time together, spending our evenings snuggled in and our weekends enjoying a matinee or lunch together somewhere. I am blessed by our friendship and continue to pray that as we walk our journey together, the Lord strengthens our bond as mother and daughter. I am looking forward to her upcoming spring break so we can go to the beach or take a drive around the island. These moments are treasures to both of us and I am truly thankful for them. Thank you Lord, Your healing touch is felt by both of us.
There is a 10k this Saturday that Carol and I will be walking/jogging with my cousins Greg and Cam, even Katie said she would do it with us. Carol and her husband Mark may run it and meet us at the Finish. I keep telling myself that I will get better with running, but boy, it kicks my butt!!! :)
Carol and I went jogging today and I am only able to run a few minutes at a time, and then I walk for a few minutes and run again. How humbled I am when I am faced with my inability to run at this point! Carol assures me I will get better and to not let myself get discouraged, but today was challenging! Once again we were in the rain and I apparently made the mistake and ate a banana and orange about 20 minutes before we took off. As we ran, I thought I was gonna upchuck the nutritious breakfast right on the side of the road. As I pressed on, my breathing is labored and I am feeling a pain in my side and I am just trying to catch my breath for the next few seconds before Carol announces it's time to run again. As the rain keeps coming down and we are going uphill, and my banana is working it's way up my throat....I for the first time......truly, want to physically hurt Carol!!!! Ugh!!!! As I am panting and wiping the rain from my face, she is chatting about her weekend and the fact that I need to push thru the pain......seriously!? Now, as I begin to run again, I am wondering if I could projectile my breakfast on Carol who is running in front of me! :) I love her! I do!!! But at that moment, I was seriously close to using some cuss words I haven't used since the last time Skip and I had a knock out drag out!!! :)haha!! God Bless her, she pushes me when I feel like I can't take another step.....but everything inside of me won't let me quit, and I am truly blessed by her.....just not this morning! As we turn and head back towards home, she tells me that it would be a good idea if I start to lift weights with her 2 days a week to build my strength....she admits her timing sucks because I am rosy cheeked and completely too exhausted to think about adding more to my plate! As we walk to cool down and get closer to home, I notice my breathing returns to normal and it seems my breakfast has decided to stay down. I must recognize that I have recovered from the panting and pain I was experiencing just minutes before. Carol again reassures me that the good thing about running is that I will only get better with time.. I can welcome her encouragement now and smile and give her a big hug before we part ways. Although she has no idea how much I wanted to strangle her moments before.....I know she gets it, and she gets me, thank God! I was definitely NOT singing in the rain....but there's always tomorrow!
Gotta Run!
There is a 10k this Saturday that Carol and I will be walking/jogging with my cousins Greg and Cam, even Katie said she would do it with us. Carol and her husband Mark may run it and meet us at the Finish. I keep telling myself that I will get better with running, but boy, it kicks my butt!!! :)
Carol and I went jogging today and I am only able to run a few minutes at a time, and then I walk for a few minutes and run again. How humbled I am when I am faced with my inability to run at this point! Carol assures me I will get better and to not let myself get discouraged, but today was challenging! Once again we were in the rain and I apparently made the mistake and ate a banana and orange about 20 minutes before we took off. As we ran, I thought I was gonna upchuck the nutritious breakfast right on the side of the road. As I pressed on, my breathing is labored and I am feeling a pain in my side and I am just trying to catch my breath for the next few seconds before Carol announces it's time to run again. As the rain keeps coming down and we are going uphill, and my banana is working it's way up my throat....I for the first time......truly, want to physically hurt Carol!!!! Ugh!!!! As I am panting and wiping the rain from my face, she is chatting about her weekend and the fact that I need to push thru the pain......seriously!? Now, as I begin to run again, I am wondering if I could projectile my breakfast on Carol who is running in front of me! :) I love her! I do!!! But at that moment, I was seriously close to using some cuss words I haven't used since the last time Skip and I had a knock out drag out!!! :)haha!! God Bless her, she pushes me when I feel like I can't take another step.....but everything inside of me won't let me quit, and I am truly blessed by her.....just not this morning! As we turn and head back towards home, she tells me that it would be a good idea if I start to lift weights with her 2 days a week to build my strength....she admits her timing sucks because I am rosy cheeked and completely too exhausted to think about adding more to my plate! As we walk to cool down and get closer to home, I notice my breathing returns to normal and it seems my breakfast has decided to stay down. I must recognize that I have recovered from the panting and pain I was experiencing just minutes before. Carol again reassures me that the good thing about running is that I will only get better with time.. I can welcome her encouragement now and smile and give her a big hug before we part ways. Although she has no idea how much I wanted to strangle her moments before.....I know she gets it, and she gets me, thank God! I was definitely NOT singing in the rain....but there's always tomorrow!
Gotta Run!
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